I will be serious all year round! No more slacking around, no more skipping homework. I will need to do EXTRA homework next year. Must have the willpower to continue this the whole year! I must learn to enjoy the process of studying. Think of the future! Think of my goals! I must be hardworking! I must leap and fly! I know I can do this, I know I have the potential in me! It's not impossible! Stop using exclamation mark! Ok, ok, calm down. Lets do this slowly.
Ok, it has occur to me since ages ago that form 5 is the ultimate thang. Like SPM sets your future path, it will determine what university you will enter, what field are you going in, etc. So, it does freak me out that I don't really cope with form 4. I've always been so confident of my studies before form 4, now I'm just like everyone else, like I am just an ordinary person. Nothing wrong with being ordinary, it's just that I've always feel like I was on the top of the pyramid, now I'm demoted. I feel that I have to work my way up again.
As I've said above, I must go back to the start of form 4. Hectic, but at least life are purposeful. Complete all my homework, exercise and practice add maths. Ask when there are anything confusing. But things will not be the same. Because I will be the form 5 seniors for juniors, especially librarian board. Guidances will not be received but given. In midst of my chaotic studies, I will have to work hard to make the librarian board a better place. Things that I have to pay attention to: my studies, add math, history, biology, chemistry, physics, co-curriculum marks, librarian board and our rights and lastly, mental growth and health.
I've tried to balance all of it by the start of form 4, but it's just too hard. Next year, I would like to try it again. This time, I won't give up. There won't be time for me to give up. It's a new year and there will be a new me.
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